Put it like this: You get to learn how to live by yourself, how to understand the rest of the world, how to create your point of view and share it with others, how to manage things alone, how to live independently.
Then you return to your childhood, but you're still able to use this awesome abilities that you learned threw this tremendous and priceless adventure. Would you feel safe and extremely comfortable, in a way you can enjoy life more... or would you feel trapped, pointless, as if you were moving backwards not taking advantage of all this new tools because you came back to that place where you don't have enough space to keep playing.
But before taking the spaceship and fly to this old territory that belonged to you. Would you feel anxious and curious to see your old teddy, your old stories "written" in the wall and join them with new... Or would you feel disgusted by the dust and spider webs, scared of not coming out again.
I feel nothing, well yes happy of coming back, sad for leaving this place. I miss people, but I will miss some more. I'm really exited to go back, and mix both of my worlds, use what I've got, let out what I've been threw (experiences, stories, pictures, memories). Show the world I'm different, yes, I'm ready to do that.
But yes, yes I would be disappointed if people back in town see me as little Luisa, as this girl that left at 16 and not this girl that returned at 18. If they don't feel the "change" even if it's clear as a window in the White House, not because it's not easy but because they don't want to move on. Not only I've learned how to express myself even better than what I used to, but I think wider, and I do wider, and having a wall basically new would just cut my inspiration for life, my hunger for further, my desire to keep walking.
Plus, in this point of my life I cannot do more but to thank every single human being that have been in my life, they made my life happy as hell, without them I would be nothing.
Gracias ;)
-Luisa Alcocer
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